It's the beginning of summer. May and June have been full. We've known all year that June, July and August would stretch us out especially thin because of Huddle Up NYC Summer Camps. As I'd look ahead at the summer calendar, I would start to feel a bit overwhelmed by the sheer volume of activities we had. Thankfully, our community of friends, life saving babysitter, and family from Florida SHOWED up and gave us much needed assistance! From walking Bess, to taking Lucie to school, to getting dinner going, to taking us out to eat, to getting Lucie to bed. It has been a sweet, chaotic, display of love poured out, and all of that was just the beginning. We still have two months to go!
I LOVE times with friends, when I'm not with them, I am busy planning the next time I will be. My hope for this extra busy season for us though, is to find intentional pockets of time to rest and recharge as a family with Lucie and Rob, and even times for just me, to reflect, journal, sit, think and pray. Oh, what a dream.
Last month, I shared how I have realized that it is really easy for me to stay stuck in fear and doubt instead of moving forward. I can put up a wall, a mental boundary, or make a (very valid) excuse before I even make a move. So that by the time two days, two months, or two years have gone by, I haven't even taken one step in the direction of something that I'd like to pursue.
That sounds kind of cheesy, right? It's so true though. And you know what? Taking that first step is SO hard. These past two months have been huge for me in the area of taking first steps. On the personal side, I've started exercising and running. CRAZINESS. The first day I ran, I ran a mile in about 15 minutes, and HATED every single moment. I felt like Michael Scott, from The Office. With every step, I thought, "this is the worst", "oh man, I'm going to be sick"; "this is SO HARD!" And after all of that, I'd realize I had only run about 3 minutes!! It was not fun, but I realized that a huge component was mental. Two months later, I ran a 10K with friends in an hour and eight minutes! Wooo! And next month, Rob and I are going to run a 5K on the 4th of July, and I actually *can't wait*! Career wise, I am joining a new team at work and feel so thankful and ready for the opportunity. It was one I almost didn't pursue because I had written off my ability before I even applied. Not every first step has had such great results as a new found love for running and a new job. I applied to four other jobs before this, and had dozens of networking conversations. It had been months of no outward difference, no change in circumstances, yet I remained encouraged because I could see that my mentality was shifting because I was willing to at least make a move.
I'm going through a workbook and one exercise is to come up with a word for the season you're in. Of course, I wrestled with what word to choose, and for awhile I wanted my word to be something else, but as I really thought about the last two months I found it: Confidence. Confidence instead of fear, confidence instead of doubt, confidence instead of being frozen. Confidence in me, confidence in others, and especially, confidence in Him who is able to do a good work in me.
That word brings me to the title of this post, which is of course the name of one of the songs from the film, The Sound of Music. The chorus to this song got stuck in my head, so I looked up the lyrics again and thought that the beginning was so fitting. It may not have been Julie Andrews favorite song from the musical, and honestly I think I would fast forward through it sometimes when I was younger, but today, it resonates with me!
My encouragement to you is to take that first step. I'd love to hear about your experiences too.
Here's a peek into what we've been up to since our last update. Enjoy.